An update

O.k. sorry for being gone so long. It's been a stressful week. I last left off with our whole hospital and contractions ordeal. The tuesday after I was continuing to take it easy and trying to not have anymore contractions when I got a phone call from my sister Kelly. She had some pretty sad news for me. Ruth died last Tuesday morning in her sleep. They are pretty sure it was a stroke. Obviously the news didn't help the contractions and I was up most of the next morning with them. Once Eric got up though I took a shower and got another hour of sleep and that helped them a lot. We then went to my doctor's appt. and she told me to stop taking the medication and that if I go into labor, it's o.k. now. So, on that topic I am still having contractions, although not bad ones, and still dilated to 3 but nothing much is happening.
Now about Ruth. I still can't believe it. I just so badly want to be with Kelly and W.T. right now and it is killing me that I can't. If I knew the baby might not come any day, I would. I'm also mad at myself because I was going to call her the day before and let them know what was going on and ask her how to make her delicious rice crispy treats and I didn't. I didn't get to say goodbye. I hadn't talked to her since Christmas. Eric was great though and he helped a lot to calm me down and make me feel better. It helps so much to know that she is definitely in heaven and not in anymore pain. She's suffered from migraines for decades, has had high blood pressure, and a year and a half ago she had a minor stroke that left her memory not the best. She's been on so many medications for so long that I just know she has to be feeling so good now. I just feel so bad for W.T. I couldn't talk to him for a couple of days because I knew I would break down. Finally, I couldn't put it off anymore and we talked on Fri. He's devastated and said that half of him is missing. They were married for 38 years and she was his world. We all thought that if one of them had to go first it would hopefully be him. I know that sounds bad but his life revolved around her and I know that he is probably so lost now. I'm so happy we were able to go down the Thanksgiving before last and see them. They got to meet Gabe and we got some pictures. Eric is so sweet. He came home yesterday with a surprise for me. He had ordered the pics. at WalMart and bought me some frames to put them in so now I actually have some printed out and not just in the comp. I was doing pretty well until Sunday during church. All through worship I bawled like a baby. We had a special band up from Portland which had a violinist in it. Well, at one point, he starts to play Amazing Grace with just the violin. I was like, "Are you kidding me! I can't take this!" They were happy tears though too because I know she loved the Lord and believed every word of that song. Usually as I sing the songs, I am thinking how they apply to me but that morning I just kept looking at them through her eyes and how she must be singing them now in heaven. So, that's what's going on here. If you happen to remember please pray for W.T. and Kelly. They are having a pretty rough time.
Love ya all
Britt