Christmas Spirit mood swings

I think they are pregnancy induced but I'm having Christmas Spirit mood swings. A week ago I was so stinkin excited for the holidays. I got all my cards ready and written in, and planned all the presents I am going to make for some people. I was fighting the urge to buy egg nog and listen to Christmas music. I was even trying to talk Eric into going shopping early Fri. morning. I've never done it before because I am so not a morning person but like I said, I was on a Christmas Spirit high. He did haul up all the decorations for me Friday morning though. But then we realized that we are still going to paint the livingroom so it would be pointless to do too much. So, we just did the tree. Then, it all came crashing down when I paid the bills and balanced the checkbook Friday afternoon. Due to some unexpected bills, I realized we were broke. I'm sure you can all understand my predicament. It just stinks that it happened at this time of year. I know God will provide and we'll be fine once my paycheck comes, but I wanted to get started now! So, now I am in a Christmas depression. I just think of things I want to do and give and how that all requires moolah. I know that is not what Christmas is all about and I shouldn't feel this way but I do! So, I'm just going to concentrate on working on the house for right now and realize that I still have lots of time to do all the things I want. I do have a bright side! The pumpkin cheesecakes I made for Thanksgiving turned out really good. I was so nervous! One of Gabe's little cousins said that it was the best pie in the whole world. Of course he is five and I think that he was just excited because he got to eat a piece of pie but I'm still taking it.